Initially when I woke up I had the dreaded feeling of "Oh crap why did I post that" that normally comes the day after mixing alcohol and Facebook. But I'm glad I was open and honest. Thank you everyone for the support! I haven't had time yet to read the whole thread.
Topspin that article is very helpful and I am definitely going to try those techniques. I appreciate you sharing with me.
Well something cool happened. I keep having dreams about washing dishes. Last night was the 3rd time in the past couple of weeks so I decided to google the interpretation :
"To dream of washing dishes represents moving on or planning for the next phase of your life. You are finishing up with something or completely getting rid of certain beliefs you had"
Maybe my subconscious mind isn't out to sabotage me after all