Croissant, basically I thought I could it without counseling and I thought I could do it being around alcohol. I am attending AA, using this site, and going to therapy. And of course I'm not around alcohol anymore.
I've been largely sober since January. I think I've drank maybe 12 days since January, so I'm making good solid progress. Its much better than only being able to stay sober for maybe 4 days.