I'm so sorry for the loss of your friend, its heartbreaking.
I relapsed last year after my dog had a health scare.
My dog is my life, I would be devastated if he wasn't here, shockingly because he's a big dog the vet says he only has an 8 year life span, he's 5 now! Why oh why do dogs have such short lives! How I wish we had them for life!
I feel for you so much, life is so cruel! Take care.