The only time I find myself fighting myself is when I am trying to assert my will, can’t accept something or I am doing something I know is wrong but I am doing it anyway.
Then I am again, restless, irritable and discontent.
When I get these feeling today, I know that I have to look at the situation and the reason I feel this way. Most of the time I am trying to control something. Once I can identify that, I can stop whirling and go back to letting go.