I am with you here, WpainterW.
My major battle is within. And it's not just battle, it's all out war.
But for me it's my rational mind that is fighting against me, providing me with thousands of excuses why I can't do something, appealing to "common sense" and past experience, dogmas and conventionalism, playing cards of guilt and perfectionism.
I am learning to trust more my self now. It's hard, but that's what I finally got chance to do when got sober.