Lillamy, thank you for that.
And again, if I lose him...I lose his kids. I may decide that I want to try to stick this out, and he might tell me tonight that he is leaving.
Regardless, if I leave him or if he leaves me...I lose his kids. My kids lose his kids. His kids lose me and my kids...
I'm nervous that if he tells me tonight that he wants to leave, I won't have time to properly talk to his kids and give them time to digest everything. They are pretty oblivious to our marriage problems, so they wouldn't see this coming.