I'm sorry you are going through this Kabukicho.
I had PTSD before they used a word for it. I suffered for 10 years.
It was torture and I will never forget it. I remember reading a story about a Nanny who killed a mother's child. The mother said something that I really related to. She said "Now that this has happened, anything can happen". That's how it feels with PTSD. Your whole sense of safety is taken from you. You have to learn to cope with a new emotional reality.
I read that 25% of people will get PTSD after a traumatic event.
This is a good article that explains it.
Untitled Document