Originally Posted by
resolute50 
One thing I have noticed since I've stopped drinking.
I seem to be more apt at being quiet,not saying something,or typing something,only to delete it. Where as when I was drinking I was VERY outspoken and crude sometimes.
That ole saying " it's better to be quiet and let people think you're a fool then to open your mouth,and remove all doubt".
Anybody else find they've mellowed out?
Oh Bob ! I can so identify with this.
I've never been one for standing up for myself but alcohol gave me Dutch courage. I remember waking and cringing at the thought of reading my Facebook or my mobile phone messages.
I spent the next morning delete , delete , delete and more deleting !
Things would come back to me during the day.
Oh geez I'm so glad those days are gone .
Leshar, one day , when you are ready , you will start feeling motivated to clean and keep on top of things again.
It's only JUST happened to me nearing 10 months , when Shaun was away.
This getting sober thing is no easy task ....it takes time and patience and a good year at least i would say .
Thank god it's behind me ..i will NEVER do a day 1 again ...NEVER .
Crois , your flower is magnifique , thank you sweetie
Thanks for all the congrats guys
I'm still getting stronger every day . Sobriety is freedom.
Oh yes it's made me feel so much guilt and torment ....it's over now , I'm not a bad person , i had a disease . I've been in remission and now i am cured .
If getting thru that horror was needed to make me appreciate what I have , then yes it was worth it . I'm just seeing that now.
To think i just wanted to die cos i was soooo , so sick 10 months ago .
I cannot believe i had these thoughts and feel sad for those who were once where i was , who didn't make it .Those who died , sick and in the depths of despair .
When there was help all along .
I could have been that person . I have so much to live for now and I'm so grateful .
Thank you to SR and you , my dear friends , i could NEVER have done this alone.
I am so truly grateful . Xxxx
Love you all xx
.....only a few more days til that scan hun ...xxx how exciting
Xxx