I have been thinking about this a lot the last few days. I tend to think a lot. I was actually going to post a thread about the "f" word. "f" meaning feelings, feelings meaning emotions.
I already got through dealing with hiding my feelings, (emotions) when married.
Had to go to court, and do the same thing. After all, what judge wants to hear this? You have feelings, express emotions, you look crazier then the crazy person. Why? I don't know? I can't say they don't have feelings, (emotions), but they have had practice hiding them. This was something new to me. It wasn't new to me to have feelings, or emotions, it was new to me that I had to hide them to survive.
Maybe I am not getting what you are asking, maybe I am, I just needed to write this down today.
I like having the "f" word. FEELINGS. I like having the "e" word, EMOTIONS, I think that is what makes me be who I am. Sometimes we can still have feelings, but just keep our emotions in check.