I'm feeling better this morning, Thanks everyone.
I just felt so good about myself earlier yesterday then it seemed like for no reason the rollercoster came off the tracks.
Went to bed had the nightmares that keep waking me up throughout the night and then here I am. Clean sober and working on day 16. I count myself lucky that I don't remember most of the nightmares just the very end if at all.
Thanks everyone for your support.