I agree airwick, Dee74 is excellent, a soothing tone of support! It's great to get to know you all through these posts. I was just thinking of a beer, then sun is out and the water is blue, day 3 is usually when the 'voice' starts up again trying to justify my behaviour and think that I'm ok again, making light of the things I've done and people who love me that i've hurt. I need to become stronger! Its great to have the April class to get some REAL perspective....