2 weeks and counting - No contact
Well its been exactly 2 weeks since I have had any contact with my ex. Not sure why I'm having such a hard time today/tonight. He left a couple blocked messages last week (I blocked his calls/texts), but I haven't heard from him in 5 days now. I gotta say its killing me inside. I keep checking the county jail website praying for his name to come up - so I at least know he is safe and checking my blocked messages hoping to hear something. As much as I know I can't talk to him or have any contact - I'm going crazy not knowing if he's just binging/partying or laying dead in some crack house. I guess there's still a piece of me that wants to believe that the 100+ other crack stories/websites are wrong and there's a possibility that there's even a small piece of him left that might actually love me and is hurting as much as I am.