I understand because I used benzos to help me with the withdrawal effects of alcohol. I appreciate your honesty more than I can express. I also was prescribed anti depressants at the same time, but with alcohol and benzos being a depressant the SSRI's did not work. What ultimately worked for me was staying in a hospital under dr's supervision to actually detox and help my body gradually withdraw from the substances. Looking back, this decision saved my life since I did not know how to use these substances to my benefit. I only knew how to abuse them. I just wanted to share my story for a couple of reasons. One; that I have been there. And two; that there is help and it is possible to recover.