AmandaOliver - It gets better over time I promise. It has been two years for me and I am just now getting to the point to when I see my Ex call or text I answer if I want or disregard it. I used to anticipate the call and think that this it is this is where I get an apology or her tell me she is going to treatment. Over time I have found that usually she just wants me to do something. Hope you get to feeling better.