Originally Posted by
BlueSkies1 
This is what I was saying...and I think it gets us back to what is the real question here?
I think when we focus on the drinker, we get side-tracked.
There's only one question for me...and it's not "do I respect the alcoholic"...the question is:
Do I respect myself?
Then everything else falls into place.
So I'm going to turn it around.
Do you respect yourself, Liz?
If not, do you remember a time when you did, and can you get back to that place?
Thank you for that question and I have to truthfully say that I do not respect myself. I have been beating myself up for even marrying someone who showed red flags from the very beginning. I beat myself up for being so naive and stupid to think that people grow up and change. I am NOT in a good place this week, though, so please know that I may be able to have a better perspective next week, lol. It's just that this week has been depressing for me. My brain is reminding me of all the ways I let others control or manipulate me and how I put myself in those positions because of my own lack of self worth.
A lot of memories are creeping in...sigh....it sucks today.