cmfl23 - I know that it get's easier. The time that the kids miss their father (mine) is difficult and it's okay to cry with them. There feelings are real. It's okay to miss someone. Yet, sometimes we can't be together. I bought some books on divorce and read them to my kids. I wish someone would write a child-based book on addiction. Daddies not here because he's a junkie and loves drugs more than us. (sorry, angry). It gets me so angry that my own husband has hurt my kids so much. Not being there, jail, rehab... it's not responsible.
I go day by day. Sometimes hour by hour. Vent away!