Originally Posted by Croissant

That's ok nomad.

All normal what you are feeling, as other posters have said too.

Forgiving ourselves is hard. I've cursed myself out loud...many times. I'm sure most of us have. I think facing the horror of what we've done, hard as it is...is vital to making us understand why we can't drink and what we stand to lose if we do.

You have a chance to claim your life back...there's a lot to gain!