Originally Posted by
lifenomad 
I took that time away from them and I cant ever give it back to them, I feel terrible, we fight more it seems, she brings it up and throws it in my face that I drank so much and always put her to the side, which is true...
I would have to think that she wouldnt throw it in your face. I mean if anything she should be happy that you quit!!
AND! I'm sure that while you were drinking you did spend time with the family and did things with them!
Maybee not as much as you could have, but you definately spent time with them! Don't go down that dark road, where you start thinking coulda, shoulda, woulda!!
I hope your wife isn't giving you too much of a guilt trip. If she is, just stay strong and in a few weeks your mind will become clearer and you will see that you did spend time..