Originally Posted by
Croissant 
Hi lifenomad....welcome.
I think the feelings you are having are normal and part of the process of first facing what we've done, and then moving forward.
Probably around 2 or 3 months of sobriety, I had some pretty torturous dreams of people I'd hurt, including mourning the life I'd said goodbye to and chosen alcohol over.
I also imagine your wife has a lot of anger, and to finally have someone sober to express it to is part of her process also. It's a big thing for both of you to face. Has your wife considered ALAnon? Even if you aren't in AA....she may find it useful to understand her anger is normal also.
Wishing you all the best....and you always have support and a place to vent here. No matter how hard it gets.
that's exactly how im feeling, like I said goodbye to my previous life when I chose to drink, now I wanna just shout "im back!!" to my family, I guess I just need to think about creating my new life from this point on. I am so worried about how I messed up and how I probably cant fix it, I need to really try
I haven't done AA but I have considered it, although the cravings no longer exist, its the aftermath that is doing more damage to me. She has not considered ALAnon and probably wouldn't, she does say she love me and wants us to work things out which is what im hopeful for, I just hope I don't shoot myself in the foot with all these negative feelings I have towards myself.
Thanks again for replying, its encouraging. Thank you