Originally Posted by
lifenomad 
I feel lost....I want to "fix" everything, I want to be the perfect man for her, the perfect dad, I cant believe I clouded myself with alcohol and live for so long that way.
I still have my family but that can change if I don't get myself together, if anyone has gone thru this by all means I hope you reply. Thank you.
Congrats on 3 months and welcome to SR!
Nearly all of us have gone through this in some way and it's initially pretty painful as you are finding out. Time heals a lot of wounds, but frankly you aren't going to undo 10 years of damage in a span of a few months. Some may never heal, but at least you have a chance by not drinking now. Keep doing that and many of the issues you are dealing with now will subside on their own.