Hey everyone,
I just noticed, since slipping day 28, now back at day 16, how different things are this time. I just don't desire alcohol so much anymore. I think last time I was just like, I don't know, still a drinker just not drinking. This time I'm just happy and content. I still have the occasional brain tweak "you used to drink now"... and I'm still a day at a time ... but it's getting quieter and softer and less immediate now.
Does that mean I'm "better"? No of course not. There are still triggers and I realise there is alot of work to do to find the new/old me. The non-drinking me. But at least since I came here there is now a little peace and quiet in my head. At least enough for me to think about other things, and therefore starting working on just me, not non-drinking me, just me.
So as I have this quiet moment I wanted to thank the Marchers so much for all your help and support. As there is no way I'd be in this space, thinking positively, without you.
