Dear Sigh, Thank you for your message. with each message I receive it's like a ray of hope to me. I'm suppose to be the strong one in our family and I felt I was floundering. I am so glad I found this board with all of you in it. I felt very alone. and as my son's therapist said to me" you feel like you were hit by a tsunami". That was exactly how I felt. I hope your son is doing well. I will pray for all of us. I know like you the hardest part is to not be able to fix this for him. I'm already struggling with that. My first Al-non recovering parents meeting is this Monday. I'm scared to go, but I know I need it. Thank you for replying it really helps talking.