Originally Posted by
embraced2000 
I read a book one time with the title.....I HATE YOU!!! (please don't leave me!)
summed it up for me in just the title.
yeeeeaaahhh.
THAT is a classic Borderline book.
As in Borderline Personality Disorder -- A serious Mental Illness that sometimes tracks along with Alcoholism and Addiction(s). Generally the Borderline is trying to sedate the Mental Illness with the Drug of Choice.
IS THAT what you are dealing with choublak?