Originally Posted by
cmfl23 
Hello all...each day it's getting easier but I find at of moments I just break down and cry. I cry over what we had, what he has become, what he is throwing away, the small moments he is missing with our son. How can he just throw everything away after 11 yrs? . Why doesn't it out isn't affecting him add Much as it is me?
I hate what addiction does to everyone involved. When my husband was active using he was in a lot of pain emotionally. He had to take more drugs to numb feelings because he hurt and couldnt work through in a constructive way. Its hard to look at the image and what you see is someone uncaring and unfeeling but I doubt inside him its the real truth. All you can do it try to live your life well, dont let the sadness and loss swallow you up.