Originally Posted by
Thankful4God 
Does this ever get better? Yes I have a sponsor & go to meetings.
Yes, it gets better. The darkness is on you right now, but hold on. Even if you're feeling so awful and you want it all to end, hold on to the thought that sooner or later it WILL subside. Pain is TEMPORARY. You never know when the shadow will lift and the world becomes brighter again. Get to a safe place and wait out the storm.
We're all with you. And well done on the 55 days, when this darkness passes you will be stronger for it.