Depressed
Brand new to this site but I am struggling. I am 55 days clean and sober. Last night I had a lot of suicidal thoughts again which bothers me because I only thought like when completely wasted out of my mind. Now that I'm sober, I guess I thought that would end? Being sober is much harder than I thought. I feel abandoned by everyone. The first month everyone was concerned because I was in the hospital, now it’s like I don't exist again. I can't help but feel worthless, depressed, suicidal, and that being at the bottom of a bottle is better than feeling abandoned. I have 2 wonderful teenage boys that I would never leave on purpose, but I just feel lost. Does this ever get better? Yes I have a sponsor & go to meetings.