CMf,
I am sorry you were so sad , I know it stinks. Your little one however, is a blessing to you, in that we can still see things through their eyes, and find the joy. You and the little one deserve happiness.
I am sorry though, and I know the heartache. Time will heal it, and looking forward, not back will help the healing. It isn't in your power to make him see.
Keep posting. we care.
chicory