My AH slapped my face till my nose bled back when I was pregnant and I STILL sometimes want to hug him and beg him to stop. This whole alcoholism thing just sucks. Little things can help, you know? Little basic things. Good coffee, long baths, exercise, prayer, Gloria from Modern Family. She just inspires me. Vent here and vent out loud, to yourself even. Talking to yourself is so underrated.
So you can't fix him. He's too broken but you're not. He will someday be at peace. You can be at peace now, even if just a little bit at a time. Sorry we're going through this.