first holiday alone :-(
Hello all...each day it's getting easier but I find at of moments I just break down and cry. I cry over what we had, what he has become, what he is throwing away, the small moments he is missing with our son. How can he just throw everything away after 11 yrs? This isn't the man that begged me to givehim a chance that one day in front of block buster, the one that shared all his secrets, made me laugh when all I wanted to do was cry, the one that told me he loved me forever and always, the one that used to sing too me. What happened to him. How can addiction change a person that much? At certain times I catch a glimpse of the old him and I think..am I making the right decision throwing him out? Asking for a divorce? Forever changing not only my life, Or his, but out sons as well? And what really pulls me back into reality is when he thinks I'm just f***ing around with this. Why doesn't it out isn't affecting him add Much as it is me?