I am worried about you too, I know what its like to be in that spot, I have stood in it myself...except not with a baby. That part makes the hair stand up on the back of my neck. It only takes once to get dead, do you realize that? There are people who can help you, if you will call that number posted above. They will help you form a plan to get out. You can get out now, even, if you are ready for that...and if he is passed out you won't be facing any wrath when you leave. Things are only things, but your life and the life of your child are precious. And irreplaceable. And it really only takes once to get dead.
Please be safe. Please be strong. For the sake of your child. You and your child deserve to be safe and loved and happy. You deserve to never be scared in your own home. Right now, your safety and your child's safety is number one. We are here for you. Please keep us posted.