I think it's normal to be down on day 4 Ima.
I dunno about you but when I look back on the end of my drinking career I didn't have that many friends anyway.
I think there's the tendency for folks like us to still look for external solutions to internal problems, yeah?
Give yourself a little time to get your recovery solid and sort yourself out...you'll be a far greater friend or partner for it, Ima
I hope you do go to the meeting - there's no need to be a hermit - there's a lot of things you could do not related to drinking that might help you feel better. Being around sober peeps is one of them
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