Oh man, I feel your pain. I tried every method in the book to keep on drinking. One last time, then I'll quit. Solemn vows. Flushing the stuff down the sink. And I was still a drunk.
Alcohol contoled me. No getting away from it either, and I never let drinking get in the way of things like going to work or being a good boyfriend to my girl.
Going to meetings helped me a lot. So did the realazation that I was beat. Alcohol won. Finally had to admit that. Once I did that, I could work on getting sober.
Took me a few tries, but it's been three years three months since I had a drink. And believe me, by the end I was a falling down blackout drinking mess.
I hope you find support here, this place helps keep me sober with posts like yours, so thank you.
Wishing you the best.