Lyricchi. I see you have been a member much longer than I, but I always have found that all the planning to do everything perfect means absolutly nothing if you let your AV steer you to drink! I would love to have , make everthing perfect in my life , but I will not let it cause me to drink. Instead I strive for perfection in the things I do but let myself off the hook , by telling myself I did well and I didn't drink because of some minor flaws in my endeavors!