I think i might see a dr
I really have lost it a little and have decided to see a dr . I must be a little crazy as a weekend of ''conscious '' drinking has turned into 5 weeks of drunkenness. I just don't understand how all theses drunk days go quicker than regular days. ill admit that tonight im getting drunk because ''I CAN START AGAIN MONDAY''. what a joke my mind is. I feel bad as i dont have any friends and even the one who i thought understands
turns out he dosnt. I am very self conscious and am very self aware of myself which alot of the time is not good. I sometimes don't post here in case people think im moaning. I feel like im annoying the world, but dont worry im stopping drinking tommorow lol it never happens. I really dont feel very well and wouldnt kill myself despite the thoughts , i just feel so low