Originally Posted by
Jillian2563 
I'm not do confident that I can abstain tonight.
It is difficult to abstain when we are 100% committed to quitting. It becomes ten times more difficult if the committment is less. In a few previous posts you seem to be clinging to the hope that you can drink. So of course the AV is incessant...what worked before, your addiction is thinking, will work again.
The AV doesn't go away in early recovery. It fades with sobriety. So if you want to shut it up, don't drink.
The cycle is broken right there, with you not picking up a drink. No magic makes you stop wanting to drink. The power of "No" lies within. Harness it, an get through tonight.
Then resume the journey, sober, tomorrow.