Driver, I also found it more stressful and unmanageable to continue drinking than to remain sober. Always worrying about hiding, planning, executing my drinking became too much to deal with. I find the moments that I have to focus on sobriety to be few and far between now. Unlike the daily/hourly thoughts when I was drinking.
JL, Sorry to hear about your latest setbacks. As others have said, drinking will only make it worse. I believe we are dealt adversity to make us stronger.