It's funny how I can feel calm and patient during the drinking episodes (well, not completely; I lost 30 pounds this year from the stress), yet feel so agitated and wobbly when he is somewhat sober. Not sure if it is because I am waiting for the other shoe to drop, or if it is because he does not pass out at 7 pm any more and give me some respite like he did when he was drinking heavily. I just know that tonight, I could not stand to be around him.