Hi Horrible
I too am dealing with weird emotions regarding my brother.
This isn't easy, by any stretch of the imagination.
The question I am asking MYSELF is "What do I need to do differently so I don't feel like I'm the hanster in the wheel"?
Keep on running and running and nothring changes.............and I am bone tired of thinking I might be able to solve someone elses problem - ha! If only!
Putting ourselves first is REALLY tough.......but I bet it isn't half as hard as this stuff.
Just thinkning out loud......