Hi. It sounds like you're addicted to trying to save her. I hope you know you can't and, like anyone in recovery, you have to abstain from seeing or talking to her. It sounds like she's not done yet and it will drive you nuts (like using coke with her). I'd suggest going to Naranon or Alanon to learn how to seperate yourself from her addiction and to take care of you. Just speaking from my own experience of sticking around to try and save my exABF which nearly drove me insane. Good luck with whatever you choose to do.