Originally Posted by
myfreedom 
I don't know how, don't know where to start, I just want to get to that point.
We are give you suggestions on how to get to that point. Stop communicating with him unless it is absolutely necessary regarding the children. Turn off your phone or direct his calls/texts to your trash folder. Tell him you need a few weeks without contact and then take that time. If he continues to attempt contact, block his number.
YOU are going to have to be the one to get yourself through this. Be proactive and focus on yourself and your kids. They need you. He does not.