Man oh man, your a lawyer good for you , now negotiate a deal that will save your life. Cop a plea to YOURSELF for YOU! I suggest starting by finding a better atmosphere for staying sober, you say your ex still loves you, well then you have to love yourself first to be any good to her. Stay on here and work your problems out, it won't be as easy as the bar was for you, LOL! But it will be more rewarding! Keep your chin up, and things will come about for you! Stay Strong and Well ! Bobby