Well, a big hand to you for going back to a meeting ARW!
I've seen men and women attend meetings for months before they actually qualified themselves as alcoholics in the rooms.
I've also seen those like me, who had no qualms at all doing it the first time.
It's a personal thing.
As it should be.
A sponsor is an invaluable thing. I'm convinced non alcoholics would benefit from the program of AA, and the relationship that can be developed with a sponsor.
So, even more so for us alcoholics.
As you get to know your peers in the rooms, some of them will clearly jump out at you, with their demeanor, their general look of contentment, or even simply the way they smile when they listen to other people share...
Again, it's a personal thing.
As it should be.