I feel I always had a choice of whether I drank or not. I also got to where I could not find the power within myself to make the right choice, one day at a time. Since it became clear to me that I was powerless over alcohol, it became obvious to me that I needed a power greater than myself. It took me years to find it but I feel I finally did and now have only occasional, slight thoughts of drinking pop into my head. I believe one day these will pass entirely. It took years for me to get to this point. Others take longer or never get here. Many take less. The sooner the better.