I was in your shoes once before I got some sober time behind me.
While trying to stay sober, I wanted a shot of whiskey, too, so I started taking them at eight in the morning. In no time I was back to drinking full time.
It's one thing to want something. It's another to act on it. It's called impulse control.
I hope you find something to occupy your time and don't act on those impulses.
Best to you.