Oh, Aarryckha, you poor lamb! I completely understand. I'm lonely too. There is something in particular about Saturdays, I find, that makes loneliness even more profound.
Take heart, so many of us do understand. I used to drink as you did, trying to blot out my aloneness, loneliness. But I always woke up facing the same situation, and loathing myself even more for succumbing to the false lure of the booze.
Stay strong, we are all in this together!