You have made a good decision to come here and post. I am the same as you, binge drinker, not daily and my binges have gotten worse and more frequent. I am about two weeks sober and I do not want to go back to waking up hungover every weekend. My hangovers are starting to spread into the week day and I am miserable. Be patient with yourself. Congrats on the 9 days but it will take time for your mind to become stronger and better able to fight through the craves. Craves are temporary but feeding your alcohol addiction can last a lifetime.