Dear Worried,
Please know that it's not you. Listen & reread what the great folks here at SR have written to you. I'm so sorry you are going through this - but it will be better because I know you have the strength to walk away from that situation. He needs help, he's an alcoholic. But you need to distance yourself... I know it's heart braking and not easy but you'll be happier & you deserve better. God bless you honey. big hug to ya, Bernadette777