The Beast of his was wild today. It tried to negotiate first. Then it showed itself. This insensitive, selfish, mean, you name it. . . Everything negative in a person. But the Beast is scared. The Beast knows deep down I am right. The Beast knows I have the right to leave. The Beast knows he cannot have us both.
Weekends have always scared me. Then I found out about detachment. Now I can listen without being overwhelmed by emotions. I have chased my own Beast back to the jungle. My rational voice came back telling me what is right and what is wrong. Wasting my life is wrong.
When I read about this approach, I cannot not to think about id, ego, and superego. Id is the animal side of every personality. When it comes to addicts, according to this approach, id is in charge. But supposedly, there is hope for superego to reemerge. And the driving force is fear, not love.