You go a day without and start raging??? have you ever been to detox? Its the only thing that saved my life and not any of the people that loved me or said they did. I did this on my own but I held them in my mind strongly because I knew I had to do the right thing. Hitting rock bottom is terrible an I make a grand to 1500 easily every couple days doing tattooing. Even though I say I hit rock bottom I still had a lot of money saved but money cannot buy you happiness when your like this and you're using.this is a great spot to get help by reading many of the posts. I learn something new with every post I read and this is better than any drug because it gives and it does not take. Go to detox bro and get cleaned and come back to us clean and sober. Its 5 days but they will keep you comfortable before you know it you're on your 25th Day like me.may God bless and keep you safe.