NO MATTER WHAT... NO MATTER HOW SAD ILL GET , NO MATTER HOW SICK THE FEELINGS OF TRUE LOVE LOSS CAN BE... I WILL NEVER BREAK WEAK AND REACH F0R THAT NEEDLE!!! NEVER... I thank all of you for your advice and heart felt wishes... IF ITS MEANT TO BE THEN ITS MEANT TO BE... She knows what the real me is like and if shes not willing to allow the real me back then she will be the one in the end to truly miss out because she knows im ONE OF A KIND and that the way I love her can and never will ever be matched again by anyone... ever!!! anyone but ME!!! THANKS EVERYONE.. I PRAY FOR ALL OF US EVERYDAY AND I PRAY DEEP AND HARD... GOD LOVES US ALL...